I did everything in my 5 years of high school,
In preparation to belong to you.
I fantasized walking your hallways,
Sitting by your pool,
And decorating my purple dorm room.
I pictured my life there,
Surrounded by interesting beings,
That I’d call “my friends”,
While I saw myself improving,
Reaping and unleashing the potential from within,
Achieving and grabbing at my life’s dreams.
I coated the walls of my room with you,
Confident and positive I’d belong to you,
The closer I got to you, you conveniently slip away,
Not once but twice I silently watch as you drift away.
I did everything that I could,
To be able to wear that grey blazer, grey skirt and maroon tie,
Thinking to myself “I finally fucking did it”. Thus it pains me to say,
Maybe we are just not meant to be,
That’s the only reason I can think of,
As you slip further away from me.
This morning,
It tore me to tear you off my walls,
I painfully told myself, “It’s time to move on.”
However you will always remain my biggest chase and my biggest desire,
One that I unfortunately could not acquire.
I will not lie and say it’s easy to let go,
For how can you let go of something you wanted so dearly since 5 years ago?
I can’t believe I’m saying goodbye,
I’ll send my children to you,
Hoping to mend this unhealing wound in my heart that clenches for you,
Till then, farewell I bid adieu to you.
To be able to wear that grey blazer, grey skirt and maroon tie,
Thinking to myself “I finally fucking did it”. Thus it pains me to say,
Maybe we are just not meant to be,
That’s the only reason I can think of,
As you slip further away from me.
This morning,
It tore me to tear you off my walls,
I painfully told myself, “It’s time to move on.”
However you will always remain my biggest chase and my biggest desire,
One that I unfortunately could not acquire.
I will not lie and say it’s easy to let go,
For how can you let go of something you wanted so dearly since 5 years ago?
I can’t believe I’m saying goodbye,
I’ll send my children to you,
Hoping to mend this unhealing wound in my heart that clenches for you,
Till then, farewell I bid adieu to you.
