"Don't bottle up your feelings," they said.
"Someone is always there to listen," they said.
"You are not alone," they said.
As much as I know that there are wonderful souls that 'got my back' out there, I find myself a burden, to them. Why should he or she listen to my problems? Why should he or she feel helpless wanting to help me? Why should these great people around me make the extra effort and burden themselves with the weight of my situation?
I know you're there for me. I know you want to listen. But I, do not want to keep bombarding you with my problems. I want you to have your own happiness and I want to bring you that happiness, not helplessness and definitely not hopelessness in your inability to assist me through. Why not just bottle up these emotions, these thoughts? Why should I let these emotions hurt other people the way they hurt me? It's true what they say, you know. Even the happiest people, can be the saddest. Honestly, I just want to be your little bubble of joy. That's what I will mould myself to be :)
